So much to say. Not very much time to update now, so I’ll fill you all in later :)

I’m ready.

I’m Pamela. I’m 21 years old, and I live in NY. You might recognize the name “Change Brings Butterflies” because it is my motto, and from a previous blog I had.

So, yes, this is my *second* fitness tumblr. I kept the same name because it really speaks to me, but my goals and my mindset are different. I would like to note that I was always healthy in my mind, but not in my actions. I wanted to be fit and happy and instead, I broke the promises I made to myself. (Btw, for those literally just jumping into this, my goals/etc can be seen on my story and progress pages :])

This is my new start :) I will be making tiny, tiny promises to myself and taking baby steps. The last time around, my biggest problem was thinking I needed to change years of habits and rituals and ideas of food in one day. I would tell myself after a binge, “I’m going to start exercising tomorrow for 2 hours every day and eat totally vegan and drink 10 gallons of water a day/etc”. It turns out, it doesn’t really work that way…and now I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been :/.

This blog is dedicated to starting over. I want to be healthy, I want to be strong, and most importantly, I want to show myself I really AM worth it. I am worth the time I spend exercising and making the best effort to put good food in my body. I want to run on the beach this summer and not worry that onlookers are judging me. I want to set the bar to where my fingertips can reach it and only push it when I can swing from it comfortably. There will be baby steps. I will not go from overweight to healthy in one day. The posts might be few and far between or on overload at first-I don’t want to make a promise that I’m going to do something until I have all of the supplies I need to keep that promise. That said, I’m excited! And I have taken steps in the past week to help get me moving out of my cocoon.

That’s why I’m looking for support :) Recipes, an extra encouragement to exercise, shiny new ideas to keep me motivated. And I’ll try my best to do the same for you :)